#WonderADay: Kulayful Ka-ARTehan

"It is almost that most wonderful time 

of the year again!" - @GetFILED 

 Sometime ago, i used to sketch a lot, draw anything something like that, mostly dresses and figures to express my moods and emotions. I do have random collection of art materials and im so fond of buying all kinds of coloring tools whenever wherever. (Last time, I bought a canvas and set of acrylic paints but haven't used yet, maybe i want that kind of feeling an artist imagining i can create a marvelous art in there oh hopefully someday..hah!) 

That time came when i become really busy and occupied with other important things to do. (or maybe that was just a perfect excuse to run away from Mr. Art N. Crafts) I barely touched any of my pens nor let my kaARTehan flow..all was kept in a huge box hidden somewhere in my room. (before it was scattered anywhere in my desk.) I dont know why. Maybe, i do love art, but sometimes, just sometimes, maybe it didn't love me back the same way. (hugotfeels? muhaha!) 

Oh anyway, you might be thinking already that im good with this art thing. Frankly, I'm not. I can't even say im an artist, well rather just being maARTe. My way of art doesn't always look amazing in spite the fact that I had put all my effort to come up with such artworks. But hey, i do believe i had that creative mind, just that the outcome of my creations are quite messy and pretty unsmoothed. haha!

Few days ago, when i saw GetFILED's #WonderADay Challenge, all of a sudden, I felt like the creativityswitch inside me turned "on". At first, i hesitated but then i finally decided to join..yay! (Im a super wander girl, why wouldn't i refuse to wonder? yiii.) Well yes, I am well-aware that im not really good at scribbling, doodling nor coloring and it's a bit risky and very challenging (for me) to do something that requires artful concept and creativity (forget neatness please? waaah!) but then, for whatever happens, i'll surely very much enjoy this challenge..and it will definitely be a memorable one. Im certain to complete the 31 days of #WonderADay and ofcourse, hoping to get lucky, too..yay! *fingerscrossed

 Thank you GetFILED for this wonderful challenge, for a chance to win awesome prizes and an opportunity to express every day in such a meaningful and artistic way. 

 Now...how far can my ka-ARTehan take me? Let's see!

 Ready..set..Wonder A Day!

Wide awake when September ends

BER months are finally here! Do you hear the bells ringing already? Yes! It's that time of the year when families are reunited and old friends meet for a lot of catching ups. I can't wait for that!!!


Hoooray for September! Presenting the SuperWander (probably..weird) Girl in her newest digi-mask. muhaha! Forgive the craziness but anyway, i do love my pigtails there.

There had been a lot of surprises and changes for the past few weeks, it may not be all good for me but i hope it will all be for the better of everyone i truly care about.

Words are getting lesser each month so as usual, just photo sharing again. ^_^

Just few proofs that you'll believe how qualified i am for being weird. 

Well maybe..just maybe, i'm more than that. hihi. Oh, i just love smiling foods.

The first and (maybe the last time) i'll make this experimental kitty pancakes, It's damn hard to manually shape them in the cookingpan, i got a lot of little red burns in my hands huhu. I dont know if i can find a molder or something for future attempts. But anyway, atleast me and my nephew enjoyed it. He was like "wooow tita its cute!"

Breaks in between.

They say, this coloring thing can make your stress go away and somehow let your mind be relaxed. I dont know how true but that isn't effective for me, coz I've been stressed out in choosing the right colors to use, afraid that I might ruin the design. haha. Oh my. 

Maybe sometimes, in the midst of everything, we all end up asking "Why me?"

I love rainy days. i just hate it when it gives that shivery cold feeling.

Oh Gosh

They say, August is a month when the portals from other dimensions are open and that lost spirits are wandering everywhere. I just dont know how true. click here maybe But yeah, whenever this month arrives, it does creeps me out a bit.

August (Agos) is also somewhat known to be the "go-on-with-the-flow" month (or that was just from Maria's theory) wherein whatever may happens, just happens - whether in good terms or bad. Well, for me, whatever those beliefs are, i still believe everything that happened or will happen depends on the decisions we make and/or the actions we take. Though, sometimes, just sometimes, some things really get out of control and the only choice we have is to accept it as it is.

Oh i kinda feel a bit envious and crazy over these little things around me. I've own the powerbank for about 3 years or so while the phone is just from this year so they've just recently met (haha!) and yet they are so inseparable! Ugh. Silly me to do this (and yes, weird!!) one afternoon when i was charging. Oooh the heart takes a bit of effort to form into that desired intentional heart-shape muhaha!

Right there, this hugotfeels in my mind that goes like....

Phone: You are always there when i need you and never a time happened that you let me down. What will i ever be without you? Please stay with me always. i badly need you..and maybe, i love you, too.

Powerbank: You know the heartbreaking truth is? Its hurts because you only remember me when youre nearly getting drained. While you enjoy all the time for your own benefit, here i am waiting for you, always have been waiting and wondering if i ever crossed your mind even when your battery's half full..or is it really just when you're running empty? I dont know. Do you even love me? Because i do love you. And even when things gets complicated and too unfair, ill never leave you. Ill be right here. I promise.

Too dramatic eh? Anything, anytime, anywhere - may hugot talaga. ugh. muhaha!

I terribly miss blogging, like those times when i can write something almost every week. Ooh so many thoughts, so little time to sort them all out. Good thing there's Tumblr where it is more convenient to post that at-the-moments thoughts. So for the times I've been away in this wanderland, i am in that other wanderland, once in a while. I remember creating this account several years ago just for the sake of having one. Nothing else. Its mostly for reblogging relateable photos and more until recently i had been hanging around here and find it a bit easier to share thoughts and its really fun to know more bloggers there and here, stuffs like that. 

And hey, from all the other thoughts i had in mind, that one above was my favorite. It's true..isn't it? Sometimes, we feel more or less, but not enough for others or those we loved the most. The flaws and other things become too distinct. ugh. Anyway, i hope we can all have that someone who can be happy and so much inlove with us in all the good, the bad and even the ugly that are sandwiched together within ourselves.  

Lastly, those anon messages are a bit mysterious but i love answering some of it - and most of it which i dont feel like posting anyway..saahreee. And the thing with being friends with someone who doesnt want to be known in the first place is somewhat scary..but maybe, just maybe.. it wouldn't hurt,  its just like bumping into a random stranger down the road, saying hello and all and probably after that sudden interaction, chances are, you wont cross each other's paths again or so those random relation will just be like episodes of one's existence that can happen from time to time.

The rain stopped...but the tears on my window remains. I loved it, anyway.

Bye Auggie, till next time.. if ever there will be. 
Hey September, just be good.

Due Lie Hopes

"I hope you find someone who is brave enough to enter your storm, and respects you enough to love the size of your waves.

I hope you find someone who will relish the calm you can have, and who is eager to set sail on the expanse of your mind.

I hope you find someone that can’t escape the love they have for you, because now they have you in their very blood, always reminding them that you are the only sea worth exploring."

- T.B. Laberge

The Art of Letting Go

What do broken hearts really need?

A mighty glue to stick the broken pieces together?
Someone to pick it up and fix it?

Or to simply let go of what keeps it breaking?


For the broken hearteds, they would always say,  "Move on.."
But it would be more appropriate to say, "First..learn to let go."


Many of us thought that Moving on and Letting go come together. but thinking about it, there's a line in between that shows their difference from each other.  The confounding truth is, you can never truly move on if you don't let go.


For me, I believe MOVING ON is attempting to escape misery, to try so hard to forget the memories, to instantly want to eject from your mind whatever bad things that has happened, to stay away from everything that hurts. Leaving all the pain someplace where it still exists and where it can still haunt you anytime. Digging a deep black hole and wanting to bury everything in there. It's like trying to move on with your life but in reality you're just standing still..and still on that same ground where you were left behind. The pain still lingers. Your broken pieces still scattered everywhere.


While LETTING GO is allowing your heart to feel what it wants to feel at the moment of your affliction. You let your emotions rule over. If your heart still persist to love, then let it. Let it love as much as it can. Even if it means loving in silence or in vain. It couldn't hurt any more because the fact that you are in deep pain already. Let it hurt if it is hurting so much. Feel hate but not so much hatred coz it might destroy you. Let tears flow freely if you feel like crying. Don't hold back. Breakdown if you need to. Don't force your heart to be okay and happy, when deep inside you know it's bleeding and terribly aching. Let those kind of emotions prevail. In time, you will see, the more you embrace pain, the less torturing those pains will be. You'll be surprised then that your tears had run dry, your sadness and pain slowly fading, how you can enjoy going out again without being bitter, if by any chance, going in the same places you have been with your past and how magically the weight in your chest feels so light. That's when you finally knew that you are indeed, learning the art of letting go.


You have to wholeheartedly accept the reality that no matter how much love you give and how much you hold on, some people aren't really meant to stay in your life.


To move on is to leave something behind. 
To finally let go is to unleash everything.


Yes, we all know that letting go is not a one-time process and it may be really very very hard at first. These are some ways to keep in mind that will eventually help yourself to be out of all the heartaches. Easier said than done..ugh ikr.


Don't keep anything. (keeping even the movie stub!)
Remove connections. (please is it like a wire or something?)
Stop caring.  (oh been so careless lately)
No more stalking. (ugh just making sure the person's alive and okay)
No more hang ups. (still can endure)
Not even hopes for a second chance. (that's harsh enough)
Nothing left to hold on to that will only drag your old feelings back anytime. (okay reality check)


When you had finally let go, when you let your heart savored all of those tormenting feelings, when you let the tears been all cried out, your heart will eventually heal on it's own. With or without someone to help you get fixed, the broken pieces will naturally mend and you will feel WHOLE AGAIN. With no signs of hatred, no burden, no guilt, no regrets. Not even a single memory of pain to look back. Just a memory of someone whom you used to love so much. Old silly memories that would simply just make you laugh.


Overall, it really doesn't matter how long it takes you to forget and finally let go of someone, all that matters is. in the end you have succeeded on it. And those experiences you had from which you should learn will only make you a little bit more wiser and those pains felt will only make you stronger than ever.


And if someday you are to find love again, which I'm sure you will, it will come to you in the most astonishing way with the most unexpected person at the rightest time of your life. Dont rush. Keep in mind this famous saying, "Love when you're ready, not just because you're lonely." 

Let go...Let God.


The Brokenheart's Choice

Hey June

"Don't make it bad take a sad song and make it better.."

I can't believe it's actually the end of the month again. 

Waiting Game: I have always been the person waiting and i wont really get bored if i have something to read and eat, like Pneuma, hi-c and chocolate ^_^
Pencil Madness: Stillness. Bed weather. Boredom. It's quite a long time since i handed a pencil to draw. I know I'm not really good at it but it's something i really love to do before. And i don't really know what makes me want to draw again lately but anyway i am thinking of having a new sketchpad for more of these feels.
Red Alert: I hate seeing this red warning in my computer. I deleted some files before to free some space but ugh seeing this again makes me a lil bit annoyed. Well, my fault.. I don't know i just can't remove them all.
Throwback: How i terribly miss school moments and yes..my pink guitar. -__-

Oh this Minions fever had me a lot of Mcdo Happymeal.

Anyway here's a screenshot of a text message.  I don't really reply to these kind of texts. I delete all at once but this one, just this one, was an exception. I thought of goofing around with this obviously fishing for pasaload and so i replied. And what can this person say when I asked for Minions as a freebie instead? Haha!

You know a lot @ScorpioTerms. ugh.

Again, my love for clouds, almost wanting to give a hug from a distance. Isn't it?

July, i won't expect you to surprise me or to be awesome, just be good to me..please.

May Madness

Time passes by so quickly and here I am again with another not-so-late month end post.

May has been a month of beaching, books, addictive TV series and foodies. Sadly, I haven't written so much book reviews this summer as I planned but I'll try to make some before school finally resumes. I am thinking of sharing a bit of summer getaways too, that is, if i won't be too lazy for those stuffs. Not really feeling good lately. Still stuck, my thoughts are always somewhere else or did I just realize that whenever someone would try to catch my attention. Anyway, looking forward for things to fall into their right places.

I don't know why but I'm kinda fond of doing challenges like this #100HappyDays. Well, maybe for me to see what made me happy that day sometime ago. So these are my top 3 picks - First, Snickers isn't my favorite but it did make me happy even just by looking at it. Second, I do know it's not nice to play with food but i did need to cheer myself a bit so my snack meal smiled for me. And lastly yes, books are my forever happiness. 

I never thought of applying for a postpaid line again, but hey i just did. So far this is the best deal I've seen so I guess it'll be worth it. I just hoped they also made these units in pink or red in color. That would really be wow for me.

They say, "When you can't decide, just take them all."   

Tang: "You're not gonna replace me with this new one right? please tell me I'm much cuter and cuddlier than that overly big-eyed kitty..can't you see? ..and we've been together for almost a year and that whatever kitty just came yesterday. Make sure there wont be any changes around here..or else..."

Tang kinda looked jealous so it seemed like he's doing he's very best to look really adorable. Haha! please forgive the messy background. ^_^ That fear of being replaced? Sucks.

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Sometimes i hope a part of life would be like "school" so whenever June month arrives, it will be automatically back to that part..well, back to you. I suppose. But that don't happen always. ikr.

 Too often, feelings come too soon, 

waiting for thoughts that come too late.