December: a month of lights, snow and feasts; time to make amends and tie loose ends; finish off what you have started and hope your wishes come true.
For me, it has been a pretty good month. Not that because things are going the way i planned, but because i'm learning to understand why some bad things had to occur. Im not saying i already found the reasons why it ever happened but maybe i'm one step closer knowing about those reasons behind..or maybe i don't really care to know anymore. Coz maybe there wont be any reason at all. Or the reason itself could be reality's wake-up-call to just focus and go back in track of life.
I just hope that God will grant me the serenity to accept the things i cannot change, the courage to change the things that i can and the wisdom to know the difference.Every year, in preparation for the coming of baby Jesus, i always wanted to complete the Simbang Gabi. But it's not like i'm expecting a wish to be granted at once. (But dear God, i would be truly grateful if it will be granted soon ^_^) Okay yes, maybe i do have a certain wish, but it's not something i want to insist, it's more of something what He truly wants for me. I guess it's more okay not to interfere with God's plans for us..don't you think? And yes also, the little sacrifice of waking up earlier than i should (im such a sleep lover) to show my sincerest gratitude to Him for giving me the better things i didn't asked for and patience for the other things He might still be preparing for me. I really don't know but sometimes, when all is lost, i just have this hope in me that things will still be okay and all the waiting will be worth it in the end.
Happily, i completed the 9 mornings. Well i almost missed the 3rd morning because i woke up around a little late but thank God i was just right in time for the 4:00 AM mass. I arrived at the church around 3:56am. So after that, instead of having two alarms, i added one more alarm to wake me up continuously. Yet the funny thing is, my favorite alarm tone "Never Gonna Leave This Bed by Maroon 5" is quite tempting for me to snooze for a few more minutes. muhaha!
Sharing my daily reflection for the Simbang Gabi's gospel:
Along with that, i was thinking of something to do, or to leave something memorable maybe for this year. So i challenged myself to pick out some of the bitterdays and betterdays i had. These all came from random years. Seriously, it's quite hard to track back which is which and sometimes i guess it could be too personal like it's better off hidden like a trashure. haha. Actually, there's a lot more but i chose to shorten the days anyway. So here's the wanderful recap of the 11 days of my bittering and betterness.
Celebrating this Christmas season with the family and loved ones is the most joyous moments i ever had this month. (Not to mention the overload of gifts received yey!) Well, even when some people had already left the vicinity of my life, i wont deny it did hurt a lot but i'm happier to know that i had given them the happiness they ever wanted in their life. That's still love, with a lil bit touch of bitterness. mehehe! Getting rid of throwing hateful rants must be part of my new year's resolution..haha!
I just came across this app in facebook. Pretty surprising that haven't posted too much statuses for the last few months..hmm.
My FB Year in StatusRock on 2015!