Februaryish

Hi all! Summer is just a month away. How exciting! I would love to return to the beach again, watch every sunset and sunrise, stay all day staring at the perfect blue sky, imagining life on the other side and dealing with the what if thoughts in my mind.

February for me is quite a busy month. In fact, the cost of extending a vacation-leave ends me up in a total bustling weeks. Making my way through lots of unread emails, pending projects and deadline rush, well, in spite of it, i still have the nerve to procrastinate in between. Maybe, i just need another break to break me from whatever broke me. Pathetic excuse..ikr! It's just damn hard to focus on work when it feels like straddling between the distance of reality and what might-have-beens.

For the past weeks, I've been around bookstores to find anything, maybe you? well, i did bought a few books and an iTunes card (for the ebooks i want to have but they aren't free..too bad!). E-books are more convenient for me but i do love having some pile of books in my shelf. yay! Just a few days after reading the Shiver Trilogy by Maggie Stiefvater, i bumped into another really good book  — Leaving Time by Jodi Picoult, that each page of it keeps me wanting for more, with every chapter my heart throbs as if it is racing for my life. Those lines that are of the same thoughts as mine is extremely fascinating. It's one of that can't-hand-it-down book for me. Though, it has a large amount of research about elephants, well, atleast informative. I guess sometimes, it is fiction that boldly tells us the reality we are in, just that, in a whole different way. Btw, here are some lines i quoted from the book.

"When someone leaves you once, you expect it to happen again. Eventually, you stop getting close enough to people to let them become important to you, because then you don't notice when they drop of your world." - Damn true!

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"I'm sick and tired of people in my life abandoning me, and she will be just one more. So I do what is easiest, when I feel like I'm in danger of being left behind, i make sure I'm the one to walk away first."  - I feel the same way as Jenna.

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Negative moments get remembered. Traumatic ones get forgotten, or so warped that they are unrecognizable." 

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"I'm the princess in an ivory tower, except every brick is made of history, and I built this prison myself."

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Could love be not grand gestures or empty vows, not promises meant to be broken, but instead a paper trail of forgiveness? A line of crumbs made of memories, to lead you back to the person who was waiting?"

I falter a moment when those words break in. Actually, it no longer surprise me to see people leave, though it still hurts to know they can't stay. But all ends up, no matter how i try not to, i'll always be the person waiting. Where has my le beau been? You're so damn late, i say. Anyway, I've read a lot of good novels lately and this coming summer i guess would be the best time to review it all. ^_^

End of the Line

So i was talking about my postpaid line that just ended. 

I thought terminating an account would be easy as saying no to a food you don't want to eat in a restaurant or like how easy for some people leave someone for someone else. I should have known. I have this firm decision of discontinuing my account - i almost failed. The agent i'm talking with gave me all the fair choices I could get like request for credit increase, a flexi plan and so on. I almost did fall for it but sternly glad i remembered my reasons why i needed to cut it off. What are those? Well not much a biggie — signal issues and i'm not really using it anymore. What's funny is, the agent even asked what number I'm gonna use as if he was so concerned that I might not be reachable or it could be just a bland survey. I just told him, I've got a prepaid number (which I don't use as well). He also asked me if i know someone who would like to continue my postpaid line and still never ending options just not to cut my account with them. I'm a bit annoyed already coz it had been taking too much time and just going in circles. The conversation goes like the person trying, almost begging to save their relationship but the other one strongly refused. Okay i know that was an emotional example..muhaha! So, after almost an hour of trying to convince me to stay, they finally approved the termination of my account. Yey! Wait, do i have to mention that the termination rules was repeated to me five times? Maybe expecting that i would change my mind for the last minute. Ugh.

February has also been a month of celebration. Forget Valentines day.  These are the party props i made for my aunt and sis' birthday. I just love making these kind of personalized stuffs. yay!

So here's my bebe tangy who looked kind of dramatic lately. He hangs out a lot in my room, being so sweet. A spoiled, homebody kitty whom i really love. He sure is lucky.,and too handsome for a cat.

I've been seeing a lot of cheesy couple shirts around places but this one caught my attention. So i took pictures on both sides even when i guess i looked weird to the tinderas around, i didn't mind anyway. mehehe!

So ever wished that for every "I'm waiting for you"  there's "I'll be there" in it for real?

Till next! :)

Movie: That Thing Called Tadhana

Starring:  Angelica Panganiban, JM De Guzman

Release Date: February 4, 2015

Genre: Romance

Movie Info: A story about a broken-hearted girl who meets a boy in a not so normal way. Together, they go to places and find out "Where do broken hearts go?". - IMDb

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That Thing Called Tadhana is an indie film that has been the crowd's favorite since it's initial release last November 2014 and it had been picked up by Star Cinema for nationwide release on February 4, 2015.

Since then, I've been seeing a lot of teasers of this film and after a few months of waiting, it's finally here! Just that this review took a while for me to finally get it done. Eeee. Almost a week pending in my drafts, damn it's really hard to write this..ugh. I feel my heart is pierced in some kind of an arrow. Ohh well.

Where do broken hearts go...?

Can they find their way home back to the open arms of a love that's waiting there? And if somebody loves you, won't they always love you?

For me, I guess broken hearts don't go anywhere else unless they're ready to leave. They may try to run away or hide but still they end up staying in the same place where they were left off, savoring the pain and misery of losing the one they've loved so much. Even waiting for whoever left them to come back again and hoping for that stupid second chance that don't usually happen. Ugh. The hearts stay there for the longest time until they decided to finally let go and move on with their lives even that means being alone.

Well in some cases, broken-hearted people can be travelling around places, hanging out with friends, getting drunk or even consider dating someone new. Yes, it could help a lot to divert your mind and make way for positive emotions but when it happens that you're too broken, even after all the attempts you may have done, in the end you're still gonna be the same person with the broken heart. Even the mightiest glue can't fix a broken heart. Only time can heal all wounds and mend what has been lost. Don't rush, it's not a racetrack anyway. Be more patient and wait.

"Ako nga pala si Anthony Lagdameo......"

How surprising could it be when a stranger suddenly walked in the most unexpected, quite distressing moment of your life?

A sweet hello in the most bitter days of your life, a blessing of a new love in disguise and a second chance to forever.. I guess we all have our own kind of stranger whom we end up with..or maybe, lost.

You might probably think that it is destiny and serendipity combined, wherein you found someone special without even looking for him/her and out of the billion people in this world, there is this one person whom you will meet, mend your broken heart and eventually change your life like no one else had ever done. Too dreamy..ikr! Whatever it is, it's something out of your control, because some strangers have that familiar feeling and sudden intimate closeness on you that they've entered your heart already even before you know they are in there.  You never really cared at all but then, after a while you two had that undeniable attraction, like magnets so inseparable and that certain stranger turned out to be the only person you ever imagined to be with you for the rest of your life. How could that be?

Just like in the movie, I can't imagine being in love with someone in such a short time of knowingness. But I believe it could really be possible. It is. I just don't think it will last or maybe not, especially if it ends right where it's just about to start. Hmm. Strange feelings like love grow in such amazingly strange way..isn't it? That's just it. There's no clear ending in the movie, it claims to have a sequel though. But I'm quite sure that Mace and Anthony's wishes in the shooting star had come true and the love they've found is bound to last forever.

Well I'm quite certain they got together, who would want that they didn't..right? Anyway, if there's really a sequel, that's surely something to look forward to and right at this moment, I'm so damn curious about the twist and turns of Mace and Anthony's tadhana.

Ultimate Hugot Lines + Thoughts

Buong buhay talaga dinala mo? Maeexcess ka talaga niyan. 

(You packed your entire life? You’ll really have excess baggage.) 

The luggages serves as a metaphor for the weight of pain that Mace and Anthony are both carrying from their past. Mace, trying to get rid of the excess weight on her baggage, she had a heavy heart throwing off some of her things just to reach the allowable weight limit. Then there goes Anthony, with an innocent gesture of kindness, where he willingly offered to carry some of Mace's things, in spite of the fact that, he also struggles on getting over the love he thought would last a lifetime, yet he still manage to share his extra load for Mace. They helped each other deal with the weight of the baggages all through out the trip. In the end, you may notice that none of them aren't carrying anything. They accidentally left their baggages in Baguio. But I guess that's a clever implication that, they had learned to let go of the burdens they have and eventually ready to move on from their past's heartbreaks.

The film clearly implies the real picture of having someone who will help you lighten your load and might as well help you unpack with your burdens. Someone who loves you enough to carry your excess and won't ever leave you no matter what the circumstances may be.

Naaalala ko siya sa lahat.
(I remember him in everything.)

We can forgive but most of the times, it's really hard to forget. Especially when the person gave you too much memories to remember. It's funny when Anthony jokingly told Mace, "Pati sa ketchup naaalala mo siya." and then he even test Mace with certain words if she have a good memory of her past..and amazingly she did. Anthony just said, "Wow. Naaalala mo talaga siya sa lahat."

When the one we love decide to break up and leave us, there's the bitter fact that we remember them even to the tiniest bit detail of a place, thing, food, songs, or even with the color of the car that passed by. Every place we go, every thing we do, every food we eat, everywhere we look, we see them, everything reminds us of them. We can't forget that easy, it's like trying to remember someone you've never met and memories you've never had. But like they always say, time will only tell when - When you will get tired of loving the person who doesn't love you anymore and when you will eventually forget the person who, at some point, had already forgotten about you.

Yet the sad part is, sometimes, the more you force yourself to forget, the more it fuels your mind to remember. 

“Pano ba makalimot?” 
(How to forget?)

The quote says, "There's really no shortcut to forgetting someone. You just have to endure missing them everyday until you don't anymore." True, isn't it? 

My way of forgetting someone is a bit simple yet painful. It's like remembering all the memories we once had until it naturally goes away in my mind and hopefully lose all the residue of emotions. It wasn't all that easy coz it's something that needs to be done every minute of every day. It sucks. Only time can tell when are you going to get tired of playing the same old memories in your head like a never-ending videotape. 

But then, actually, I don't believe that we really forget, especially the ones we truly love. We just have to learn to live without them. Our minds can't be like a hard drive that when it gets corrupted, you'll just need to reformat it and it's as good as new. Not a single memory file from the past. Well how I wish it could be easy as that. The irony of it is that we mostly remember the people that we're supposed to forget. No matter how many other people we meet along the way, we can't deny that some are left engraved in our minds and much more deeper in our hearts.

So how to forget? I know one thing that's for sure. That one day, you will wake up and tell yourself, "Tama na, pagod na kong isipin ka. Ayoko ng mahalin ka. Gusto ko ng makalimot."

And that's how and when.

Hindi. Na. Kita. Mahal. Makakaalis. Ka. Na. Seven words. 
‘Yung 8 years namin, kinaya niyang tapusin in 7 words.

Mace's 7 words is also Popoy's 7 words in the movie, One More Chance. 

“Bash, 5 years.. itatapon mo lang lahat?” 

When the day comes that someone tells you they'll love you forever, do not let it consume you. Because there will be a day that will come, when they will tell you that they dont anymore, and there will be nothing left of you.

I can no longer add anything more to this. Next!

“Bakit, kapag sinabi ba niya kung bakit, may magbabago? Ang bottomline, hindi ka niya mahal.” 
(Why, if he told you the reasons, will it change everything? The bottomline is he don't love you anymore.)

It usually happens that when relationships end, those who are left behind always ask the question, "WHY?" Unstoppable tears and endless whys, it's painful that sometimes the answers are unsearchable or not quite acceptable for every broken heart.

Like the bungee jumping incident in Mace's dream. They were already in full gear, holding each other hands very tight. Suddenly, Mace felt her boyfriend was slowly letting go of her hand, until she realized that her boyfriend jumped off without her. That's it. When people leave, there's nothing you can do to make them come back. Or even if they do, it will never be the same as before again.

So what's the use of knowing the reasons of why the person decided to unlove you? Sometimes, it doesn't need an explanation for a closure. When it's over, it's good as gone. Case closed. The mere fact that the person didn't make an effort to save your relationship is a clear implication that it's not worth keeping for and not even worth going back for anymore.

For a love that's true or long term relationships that failed in the end, it's never easy at all. When you had the mindset that both of you will be together forever but then it didn't worked out just the way you thought it would be. All the effort, time and love had been gone to waste.. just like that, such a terrible feeling eh? Anyway, like they always say, everything happens for a reason, whether you know it or not, it's like a pill you need to swallow. You may get high and dizzy for a while but time will come that you just have to stop asking yourself a lot of whys, just accept everything and move on. Moreover, these pains aren't suppose to make us weak rather it should force us to be stronger than ever. Hopefully, when it all had passed, you'll surely consider that you deserve someone better..and who knows, that someone might be just around the corner.

Wala naman pala ‘yun sa tagal ng relasyon. Kung hindi ka na nya mahal, hindi ka na nya mahal.
(It doesn’t matter how long your relationship was. If he don't love you anymore, he don't love you anymore, and he probably mean it.

Time is not a measure of quality, of infatuation or of love. It doesn't speak of substance or endurance. Time is either well-spent or damn wasted. But how could you possibly know if you're not wasting your time and that you're spending it with the right person? That's quite the tricky part. I don't know either. When we fall in love, we fall in love. We're lucky if the person we love won't change their minds loving and wanting us to be in their lives even after a few months or years later. That's all we could hope for, we can never control people's feelings. If they've fallen out of love, there's no way to get it back. 

Damn horrible truth which is more scarier than any monster in your nightmares huh?

Aren’t we supposed to be great by this time?

This reminds me of that very popular essay question way back in highschool days, "How do you see yourself 10 years from now?" Like would you imagined your current status, present job, life's never ending dramas, the chances you didn't take, that waiting game for le beau to come by?  Of course, what was written back there is quite different from what had actually happened to you. 

The truth is, every day is the most perfect time for you to show how great you can become. It's a long process. Your talents may rust but it can never be unlearned, it will only get better in time. The choice is always yours. You can dream all you want or you can dream, wake up and work hard for all your heart's desires to come true. You just need to make an effort to push hard and learn how to stand firm in your goals and aspirations in life. Coz if you don't, you'll lose it or someone else will take that chance from you.

In the movie, Anthony lost her girlfriend because he didn't tried harder to win her back. He didn't chase long enough to catch up with her. He got tired easily. Instead, he clung to what people say, "If it's meant to be, it's will be. Let fate or whoever do the work."  So it's all up to the wind? To destiny? Some vague force that doesn't show you the future with someone you really love? I don't really think so. Destiny bring people together but it isn't responsible for anyone's forever. It's still up to them to make it last, for them to do the hard work. Just like for Mace, it shouldn't be that way. She said, you should go after the one you love, fight for him. Don't wait for the wind to blow him back to your direction. Pull him back. As much as you can. Don't give up. Don't let go. 

Hmm. It not all about love and romance, it also shows on how we should act to make our lives worth living and live without any regrets. Anyway, still believe that like the magical force of tadhana of bringing two people together, there's also some kind of a force that will push you towards the rightful choice in life and love, and the path where you're simply destined to be.

Kasi ‘yung ganyang kalaking pagmamahal, ganyang overwhelming love, imposibleng walang pupuntahan eh. May mababalik sa’yong pagmamahal. Not necessarily sa taong pinagbigyan mo, pero sigurado ako, mababalik ‘yan sa’yo. 

(It's impossible for a love like yours, that overwhelming kind of love that flows out from you, to not catch on anywhere, or with anyone. It's bound to be reciprocated, not necessarily by the person for whom it was intended, I'm sure it'll go full circle back to you.)

Maybe that magical moment you've been waiting for all your life will happen someday. That the love you gave away some time ago will be returned back to you and it will be more than what you expected it to be. Also, the love that has been stuck in your heart will eventually find someone who rightfully deserves it.

No one can tell when. Maybe sooner or later. When you're ready for it.



My Review for ThatThingCalledTadhana

That Thing Called Tadhana is a Filipino romantic independent film that depicts the reality of undergoing a total heartbreak, dealing with the pain of letting go and how surprisingly someone will be there for you to help you move on. The film had showcased an extraordinary story, through the metaphorical signs and the ultimate hugot lines that surely will bring the feels to people who is burdened of their past.

Angelica Panganiban and JM de Guzman portrayed their role character in a very realistic way.  The scripts contained true-life conversations and the exchanges of dialogue were expressed naturally that it all felt so real. Angelica as Mace, she delivered her lines in such powerful way and it all appeared so natural coz that's at least how every broken-hearted girl would feel and rant about.

While JM as Anthony, he was kind of meek but a man with a very deep perception in life. He portrayed the character of what a man should act and think like. I suppose. The sweetness of his glances to Mace and shy smiles in some scenes definitely made the spark of kiligness way beyond expected. Yiii. His acting was simple, not as strong as Mace's character but that made the overall performance so genuinely perfect.

I so love the simplicity of this film. How could be a film so wonderful with only two people talking all through out the whole time? How could so much words be striking enough that it almost felt like being pierced by a dozen of arrows? How could it be that saying bad words sounded so cute eh? I'm not really used to those kinds of words but upon watching it I was kinda amused. I can't remember how many times I've heard them blurted out "Tang***" etcs,, i guess it's like a flavor in every lines. So really cute. It was such a relatable movie, you'll cry and laugh at the same time. Maybe you'll even say, "I've been there, I felt that, I said that same line a few months ago!"

What more could I say? The cinematography is spectacular for an indie film, no doubt that it breached the gross revenue of 120M three weeks after it's nationwide release. The film's success was a visible indication of the peerless talents of its cast. Hats off Direk Antoinette Jadaone and to everyone who made this film possible.

My Final Thoughts

People fall in love and fall out of it, there's nothing permanent in this world. Everyone else have the right to change their minds, plans and even the partners they want to be with. Just that, in every course of action, there's a reaction we can't control. We lose something hoping that we would gain something much better. We just have to deal with the complications whether we like it or not. We can never run from the past, we should learn to completely let go. We can never control a heartache, we should endure until it stops aching. We can never ask anyone to stay if they've already decided to leave. We can only accept that some things happen in such ways they're supposed to happen. It's not all bad at all. Love hard, just don't lose your identity trying to give someone else everything they need.

We all know that quote, "Every people we meet comes with a baggage" Some are definitely heavy, some just have normal weight. We just have to find who's willing to carry the excess weight, help us unpack our burdens and mend each other's broken heart. In the end, That Thing Called Tadhana clearly tells us that we all have that special chance to find our own Anthony Lagdameos and Mace Castillos, by that time, it will make us realize why it never worked out with anyone else.

I believe, there are three kinds of Destiny:
The one that come true ^_^
The one that had been lost -_-
And the one that ended right before it even started because of some kind of complication of a regrettable mistake. x_x

There are all kinds of love in this world,

 but never the same love twice.

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Gong Xi Fa Cai!

May this new year bring many opportunities to your way, to explore every joy of life and may your resolutions for the days ahead stay firm, turning all your dreams into reality and all your efforts into great achievements. 

Gong Xi Fa Cai everyone!

Valentine Special: That Feeling Called LOVE

You're my CAT. I know you like dogs. But for me, you're my forever cat.

Since it's Valentines' Day, I guess it would be perfect to write something about love. Not quite okay yet I'm a bit glad that I'm able to sort my thoughts at this time.

So there goes Love. Everyone else wants to have it. Everybody needs it. And they even say it's one thing they can't live without.

But are you even ready to accept it and vow to keep it burning real for longer period of time? Or you're just after the convenience of having someone in your life? 

Are you willing to sacrifice everything? Or you'll just run away quickly from the responsibility? 

Why get attached when it will all ends up in detachment and loss?

Oftentimes, love is a misused word that it loses it's significance. 

What's love anyway?

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 "Once Love is defined, it is confined. Once confined, it DIES." 

A lot of people try to define love, as much as I want to find the real meaning in it. I'm quite aware that words aren't enough for love to be defined. Yet, i'll still give it a try to put my feelings into words.

It's a common thing to ask, "Why do you love me?" And I guess the common answers would always be based on the physical appearance, the traits, habits and whatsoever you may want to include. We can't really say anything other than that. Though it's quite more safe to say, "It's what I'm feeling." Yes, it's the sweetest feeling when you hear/know the reasons why that certain person loves you. But the fact is, when you always look for reasons or ask them to define the love they had for you, it's like you're forcing them to find reasons to unlove you in the end. Because, once all of the reasons are gone or it has changed in time, love will fade and will be forever gone. It's like the feeling of waking up one day and asking yourself why you ever had loved that person. It's horrible, isn't it?

So the next time you ask someone why they love you, just be happy when they say, "Because I do.." or probably, don't ask at all, just feel it in your heart.

You're in love when you can't explain how you feel. 

You're out of love when you have all the reasons why you don't anymore. 

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 "Convenience and Comfort kills Love." 

It was hard to take at first, but then after a while I saw and felt the deeper meaning in it. Love is not always being happy and comfortable all the time, it's more of the inconvenience and discomforts encountered along the way yet still remain happy and contented with each other. Love, it's a form of sacrifice and enduring the pain of every hardship in this world.

Furthermore, look back the time our parents (relatives or whoever) took care of us when we were still a baby. They don't mind staying up awake all night just to watch over us sleeping so mosquitoes won't bite us. No matter how tired and sleepy they may be, they give us milk when we cry in the middle of the night, gently carrying us around their arms as they hum a lullaby. Then we grow up, and still, they take care of us. They get mad a lot of times when we had done something wrong and they get heartbroken when we get sick or get hurted in any way. They tuck us to bed and make sure we get a good sleep. They prepare our meals. They provide whatever we need and even the pleasures we want. They work hard. They even still stay late awake waiting for us to come home from school, from work or from wherever we had been. They're happy enough just to see us happy. And though some parents may not say the word "I Love You" all the time, but in every thing they had done, it's more than too obvious that they really do love us despite of the inconvenience and discomfort of everything.

If you seek love, I mean, real love, one must be ready to be selfless and wholeheartedly accept the pain, inconvenience and discomforts that it would bring.

Acts of love, never to be defined at all, 
only to be appreciated and felt with the heart.

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 "Love comes in two ways - Attachment and Detachment" 

Attachment is quite good to hear yet detachment is a bit confusing and heartbreaking to perceive. You may ask, where's love in detachment when detaching means leaving and being disengaged with anything or someone close to your heart? Actually, I had that same question in my mind that I'm trying to find the answer myself.

Attachment to Love

Attachment is having strong feelings of affection for someone and a connection that binds two people across time and space. Though, some attachment are not reciprocated and is not being shared.

I suppose this happens in all kinds of relationship. Attachment, for me, is when we stay very close with someone and at the same time have that certain fear of the unknown and that both may lose each other in the end. Yet this fear is the same thing that shove us to get attached even more. Still wanting to holding on to it and hoping it would last. It's like being responsible for the happiness of the other or mostly, it can be both. Finding someone who truly understands and accepts you leads to instant closeness and a blooming attraction. Especially when you've been in a situation where all you needed was someone to be there, you'd be weak enough to resist the desire of it.

Attachment, like a camera zoomed on focus, the picture becomes all too blurry when it's too close than it should be. There goes the feeling of being too clingy that somehow it manifest being jealous at times and controlling each situation that may not be favorable for the person attached. Hence, attachment gives power to emotional dependency causing a person to be reliant and fully enmeshed with their partner. Sometimes, we all get too selfish and demanding, wanting to benefit too much of it. Failing to see that grasping and putting too much pressure burns down the love that blooms in the attraction therein. However, it does not claim to be that the proximity of someone is somewhat dangerous. I guess it just needs proper balance and more selfless love in it.

How do you know when the attachment began to form into love? I believe that is when you feel pain. When you get affected and hurt even with the smallest gestures and ways of the other person. When you become too close that you can't simply imagine life without that certain person. When you began to become too clingy and manipulative in such things. When you feel tormented that it might not work out and the fear of losing is stronger than ever.

Indeed, it is a wonderful feeling to be intertwined with someone and that eventually you two might fall deeply in love. Who doesn't want it anyway..right? Just that, in some cases, when feelings like love are revealed out in shadows of deep attachment, sometimes it is painfully not reciprocated.


Love in Detachment

Detachment, as described is the form of disengaging from an over-enmeshed or dependent relationship with people. It is developing an emotional distance from someone whom you have given a lot of power to affect your emotional outlook on life. Detachment means letting go and non-attachment means simply letting be.

Looking into the bright side,  the word itself may sound very callous but then it isn't as harsh as it seems. Detachment, for me, is simply the willingness to back away and just accept the realities in life that are out of control and can't be changed. It is somewhat an emotional shield to protect someone from experiencing severe pain in the next few hours of his/her existence. Also, it is to prevent not to be emotionally ravaged from being overly dependent and attached with certain people in our life. That in the end, we might hopefully regain the sense of autonomy and independence that had been lost in us because of the irrational point of entanglement.  It is a freedom and wide space given to one or two individuals to act themselves and to obviate hovering in the shadow of each other.

People walk in our lives just like others have to walk out of it. Why is that? Why can't we keep the ones we truly love? No matter how we wanted to, we just can't. Some things are just out of our control. Just like the feeling we have over these circumstances - the grief we had when a loved one dies, the painful rejection when the person you liked dumped you, the misery when your partner suddenly broke up with you, the bitterness when someone replaced you, the confusion when someone close to you become distant, the sorrow in every goodbye and separation. When any of that happen, no matter how deep the emotions are or how strong the attachment may be, you simply have to detach a part of yourself from them. Detach if you have to. Sometimes it's the least you can do to save yourself from falling apart. Yes, it's tormenting pain to gain and lose at the end but we need to understand that some things can never be just like some people can't stay in our life. There are some lessons in this life that we can only learn in the hardest way.

I guess that's always a part of loving people. Sometimes you have to let go. Yet letting go doesn't mean that you don't care about them anymore. It's just that it happens that you've come to a bitter realization that the only person you have control over is yourself, and not the people around you, nor the person you love the most. There are these issues in life that are so damn hard yet you need to compromise to give up in order to gain something greater or because it's the only choice left for you to take. Whatever it is, it's undeniable that we all have reasons for our own actions, whether be it for our own good or for the good of the other.

People come and go. We can never really ask anyone to stay, no matter how we beg them not to. But when someone is etched in your heart, they're never truly gone. They will surely be there for a long time. Though chances are, they may come back to you, even at unlikely times.  I firmly believe that the only the ones who are meant to be in our lives are the ones who are meant to stay there no matter what. Yet still, we can't change the fact that once they leave us, they take a part of ourselves we can't effin' take back.  

To lose someone you love is to alter your life forever.

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That Feeling Called Love

“Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.”

Love, known to be an intense feeling of deep affection. It is a certain emotion of a strong attraction and personal attachment. A feeling that exist between family members, friends and couples. It's simply like the wind, you can't see it but you can feel it.

To love is to be vulnerable. To let them be happy all the time, to wish them well, to refrain from expecting anything in return and to set them free if needed to.  Love happens when there is intimacy, understanding, contentment and acceptance despite the flaws and differences of one another. To love is to let the people we love to be themselves and not to twist or change them to fit the image we want to see in them. To love is to accept the other person just the way they are and the way they are not. True, you don't love someone because they're perfect, you love them in spite of the fact that they're not and with that imperfections, it makes the love more stronger and the relationship worthwhile.

Moreover, loving someone is giving a piece of yourself even when they didn't ask for it. It is being together in good times and most especially during the bad times. It is being honest, faithful, always telling the truth and never pretending. Love doesn't have to be selfish - it is to have the freedom to pursue your own plans and desires in life while sharing your experiences and growing together with the other person. Love doesn't turn you into a lesser person rather it naturally brings out the best in you.

Real love is unconditional. It's like a sandwich with the yummy spread of compassion and devotion.  It is to love when things are going your way and even when things are not going the way you expected it to be. And to some point that when the one you love shove you, make an effort to move a little bit closer. Love is loving the person more than your pride.

 Love is not self-absorbed, but allows us to extend to others without feeling drained.

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Each individual have their own views when it comes to love and I guess whatever I had written is just a small slice of what love really is.. for me. Some may agree and disagree, that's fine. The only sure thing about love is, it makes the world go 'round and gives everyone all the happiness through that feeling called love.

And maybe it's clearer, even you like dogs, to me, You'll always be a CAT.

 (CAT - "Caw Ang Truelove ko" derived from a pal, it's coooorny but it's sweet.)

TOP 11: Sweet Love Songs

How was it like to be in love?   Sweeeeet.

It's when reality is better than dreams. It's when you found the missing piece of yourself. It's when you two are flawed but still perfect for each other's view. It's when your differences are spicy flavors to your sweet compatibility. It's even when you don't always say the words "I Love You" but the actions showed it all the time.

It is when you don't own your heart anymore 'coz you had given it away to the one you love.

These may not be the sweetest songs, but these songs tells most of what I felt like to be inlove.

11. Opposite Attracts.

 10. Just swear to the universe.

 9. No matter how many people you meet, there's this one person who had this special place in your heart.

 8. There's forever in everyday.

 7. If it's you, it's gonna be love forever. 
If it's not you, it's just another phase.

 6. Have you had that feeling when it felt like you've known the person some time in the past?

 5. Distance makes love stronger.

 4. Someone will walk into your life and make you feel what love is like.

 3. True love can't go anywhere, just a bit more deeper everyday.

 2. Everyone wants forever but none of them make an effort to attain it.

 1. This song is just so perfect for you and me.

TOP 11: Sad Heartbreaking Songs

It all sound too hopeless and desperate but that's what a heartbreak is. Those times when you realize things yet too late for another try. When you were replaced by someone else unreasonably. When you had been fooled by someone whom you really loved. When you aren't deserving for second chance. When you have given up but can't let go. When you need to let go so you can move on but still a part of you is begging you to hold on. When you had a lot of things to say but you refuse to talk. When you silently watch people you love walk away in your life, deep inside hoping they would stay. Those never-ending questions of why you had been left behind and why you aren't enough for someone not to leave.

That excruciating pain and extreme effort of trying to pick up yourself when no one else cared to bother your bleeding emotions. Those sleepless nights, endless tears, the broken heart that seems can't be whole again. It's a horrifying truth that sometimes people will never understand your hurts and pain unless they've been through the same battles you had.

Yet for the meantime, these songs could help to slap you big time unstoppably that you may get back to your senses once again. To tell you that there's life after emotional death. No one really dies because of a broken heart, they just stopped living, though.

11. When you only want to love the person yet they choose to leave you anyway.

 10. If it's not happy, it's not yet the ending.

 9. Was it really easier to leave?

 8. Goodbye is always painful.

 7. Some people can't be contented.

 6. Trapped forever in the past's heartaches.

 5. Some people just aren't sure of someone.

 4. Being stupid means loving too much.

 3. This song tells a lot.

 2. Ever felt being the last cookie in the jar with no crumbs of chocolate chips left that made you a lot more bitter?

 1. It never even started yet somehow you lost it. 
Or maybe during those times somebody stole it.

TOP 11: Second Chance Romance Songs

Longing for the past to come back?

It's a sweet, terrible feeling to stay inlove with the past. When everyone else is moving on with their life, you get stuck on the same ground where you were left behind. But you don't care much at all. Because you believe that the love you had is meant only for that someone who's still in your heart but not in your life anymore.

They say love is sweeter the second time around. That's because you already knew what your mistakes are, your shortcomings and probably you won't be doing it again. This time, you'll both be holding on and will never ever let go. But the sad truth is, not everyone get their share of a second chance with someone.

Would you dare to hope for a second chance? Anyway, these songs are truly worth a second chance to be heard.

11. Can't say No.

 10. Waiting for that magical moment.

9. That same old brand new feeling.

8. Ever hoped it could be that easy?

 7. Never ever will let go..again.

 6. The person may have left you, but stayed in your heart.

5. Alone but heart's never empty.

 4. Someday?

 3. Always been you.

 2. A chance of infinity.

 1. True love never dies.

TOP 11 - Bittersweet Songs