Au revoir 2014

Looking back, 2014 has been a tough year, like it has been a roller coaster ride of a lifetime. Yet it did have intervals when i get to feel light like being up high chillaxing in a ferris wheel but no matter how hard i try to get rid of the extremities of life's complication, i just can't. Because maybe, some things definitely needs to be faced. But hey, i did manage not to puke over the whirling sensation of that so-called roller coaster ride for the last 12 months..muhaha! So, for the last day of this year, I'm glad that I made it through all the obstacles, the ups and downs that this year has given me. Oh well, i don't really mean to sound so negative about this year. Of course, aside from the bad things, a lot of wonderful surprises had came along the way. Unexpected pack of blessings that had really made me happy. The wonderful hues that i had perceived is probably the best part. It is this year that i learned a lot about life's bittersweet truth. That there are these things that we want but isn't meant for us because we surely deserve more better than what we're yearning for. Things like that..and more. My patience has also been put into a test of how long could i wait for me to finally say "I Made it!" and i just know this will all be worth it when that magical time finally arrives.

By the way, out of the blue, i just made an online diary. TheHueandMeDiary, the other side of my wanderland - a light and carefree diary to make room for my overflowing unaltered thoughts. Yay! So this is it, finally at the end of the year and I still can't find the exact words to say of how truly grateful i am for 2014. I just know it had shaped me to be the better version of me. And i'm quite so sure that my upgraded version is the perfect armor i needed to keep up in this coming 2015.

Hey, remember to leave the bad memories behind, only keep the good ones close to your heart. A hopeful 2015 stands before us, like a chapter in a book, waiting to be written...

Ready, set..make it happen! 

December Challenges

December: a month of lights, snow and feasts; time to make amends and tie loose ends; finish off what you have started and hope your wishes come true. 

For me, it has been a pretty good month. Not that because things are going the way i planned, but because i'm learning to understand why some bad things had to occur. Im not saying i already found the reasons why it ever happened but maybe i'm one step closer knowing about those reasons behind..or maybe i don't really care to know anymore. Coz maybe there wont be any reason at all. Or the reason itself could be reality's wake-up-call to just focus and go back in track of life.

I just hope that God will grant me the serenity to accept the things i cannot change, the courage to change the things that i can and the wisdom to know the difference.

Every year, in preparation for the coming of baby Jesus, i always wanted to complete the Simbang Gabi. But it's not like i'm expecting a wish to be granted at once. (But dear God, i would be truly grateful if it will be granted soon ^_^) Okay yes, maybe i do have a certain wish, but it's not something i want to insist, it's more of something what He truly wants for me. I guess it's more okay not to interfere with God's plans for us..don't you think? And yes also, the little sacrifice of waking up earlier than i should (im such a sleep lover) to show my sincerest gratitude to Him for giving me the better things i didn't asked for and patience for the other things He might still be preparing for me. I really don't know but sometimes, when all is lost, i just have this hope in me that things will still be okay and all the waiting will be worth it in the end.

 Happily, i completed the 9 mornings. Well i almost missed the 3rd morning because i woke up around a little late but thank God i was just right in time for the 4:00 AM mass. I arrived at the church around 3:56am. So after that, instead of having two alarms, i added one more alarm to wake me up continuously. Yet the funny thing is, my favorite alarm tone "Never Gonna Leave This Bed by Maroon 5" is quite tempting for me to snooze for a few more minutes. muhaha!

 Sharing my daily reflection for the Simbang Gabi's gospel:

 Along with that, i was thinking of something to do, or to leave something memorable maybe for this year. So i challenged myself to pick out some of the bitterdays and betterdays i had. These all came from random years. Seriously, it's quite hard to track back which is which and sometimes i guess it could be too personal like it's better off hidden like a trashure. haha. Actually, there's a lot more but i chose to shorten the days anyway. So here's the wanderful recap of the 11 days of my bittering and betterness.

 Celebrating this Christmas season with the family and loved ones is the most joyous moments i ever had this month. (Not to mention the overload of gifts received yey!) Well, even when some people had already left the vicinity of my life, i wont deny it did hurt a lot but i'm happier to know that i had given them the happiness they ever wanted in their life. That's still love, with a lil bit touch of bitterness. mehehe! Getting rid of throwing hateful rants must be part of my new year's resolution..haha!

I just came across this app in facebook. Pretty surprising that haven't posted too much statuses for the last few months..hmm.

My FB Year in Status

Anyway, I hope you all had a very Happy Christmas. Let's all get ourselves ready for the New Year..Rock on 2015!

Book & Movie: The Fault in our Stars

Starring:  Shailene Woodley, Ansel Elgort, Nat Wolff

Run time:  126 min | 133 min (Extended Edition)

Release Date: June 2014

Genre: Young adult novel, Realistic fiction

Movie Info: Two teens, both who have different cancer conditions, fall in love after meeting at a cancer support group.

"One Sick Love Story.."

It took me a while to finally finish this review. I'm supposed to post this a few months ago but i guess i didn't feel like hearing my thoughts those times. It was kind of pretty sad and made me literally sick, really. All the longing for infinities and all that I've been aching for.

I had read this from the book and was quite really surprised for this movie adaptation. Yet, though i already know the "ending" (which is that Augustus Waters died) i still find the movie very heartbreaking to watch especially at those hard times. And to be truthful, i didn't watched it on it's screening date/weeks (even if so many times i was tempted to) I tried to avoid that kind of stories for the last few months. Yet just months ago, i decided to give it a try. (I finally watched it..online!) Since i know the story already, maybe it won't hurt that much. That this time, i could hold back the emotions in this tearjerker movie.

My Thoughts:

I always thought Infinity meant Forever and forever meant endless time. But upon watching this movie, i came to realize that forever doesn't always mean that it will last forever. True, it is an incorrect concept. Because i think it doesn't really matter if it's endless. What truly matters is the true and sincerest emotions shown during the time that the person is still with you. Even if it's just for a few years, a few months or a few days. I know, it is really unfair, very incorrect. And i want to strongly disagree with that but there are these things that are unchangeable and limited in time.  Even if we want to prolong the moments of togetherness, it just can't be...no matter how unacceptable that is. That fact itself is truly heartbreaking. 

In the movie, Hazel thought she would die first but it ended up, Augustus died first. Yet, the little infinity that they had is more than what forever really means. Even if they've shared it just for a number of days, what they had is something so extraordinary. They didn't mind even when they're literally sick or almost dying, all did they ever cared in the world was to show how much love they can both give to one another. I don't remember them planning for the future because they both know all they have is the present time. That hurts too but it didn't matter at all. That is one brave thing two people can do - to love unconditionally and fully accept each other the way they are and not the way they can't be. To know their limits and conquer it with true love.

Sometimes, we don't really have to look forward to forever, all we need is to make the most of everything NOW. Because tomorrow may be too late and forever will always be just a word with broken promises. (unless otherwise proven in actions) We don't also need to be remembered by everyone, those people who cared true enough for us is more than enough to accomplish a meaningful life. When our time has come, the marks of our existence will always live in their hearts and i swear, we will never ever be forgotten.

One more thing, i love the idea of attending my own funeral. Why not? It's unjust that people close to us or just people who knows us will only say what they think and feel about us when we're gone for good in this world. And that we won't be able to hear their eulogy, that's quite really unfair. Isn't it? Mehehe!

Book to Movie

No violent reactions, but well I just noticed these missing/altered parts:

• The argument of Gus' and his parents about going to Amsterdam. (because of his recurrence) And Hazel and her mother happen to overhear but they went back to the car and waited for Gus to go out instead.
• The limousine going to the airport.
• Going home, Hazel and Gus didn't have a champagne toast on the airplane.
• When Gus was in the ambulance with Hazel, he asked her to tell her a story or a poem. Hazel told something about the Red Wheelbarrow. As she added more lines about the G-tube and so on, Gus didn't mumbled "And you say you don't write poetry.." 

There are more other missing parts but i don't feel the need to include them all here. Overall, i love the simplicity of the movie, it's worth watching for over and over again.

I can pretty much relate to this TFIOS Quotes, like Hazel with AIA and me with TFIOS  (and hey Hazel's doctor name is Maria..how cool is that?!)

• I'm pretty unextraordinary. (I guess)

• I'm like a grenade. I'm a grenade at some point I'm going to blow up and I would like to minimize the casualties. Because I'm a grenade. I just want to stay away from people and read books. (because in some way I AM) 

• I was a teenager with no particular wake up time. (sleep lover indeed)

• I couldn't unlove Augustus Waters. And i didn't wanted to. (Where's mine anyway?)

• I kind of conned you into believing you were falling in love with a healthy person. (I did?)

• Grief does not change you, it reveals you. (You see it?)

• Sometimes I dream that I'm writing a memoir. A memoir would be just the thing to keep me in the hearts and memories of my adoring public. (This is.)

• I fear oblivion. (I don't.)

Most Favorite Heartbreaking TFIOS Quotes

•  “But I believe in true love, you know? I don’t believe that everybody gets to keep their eyes or not get sick or whatever, but everybody should have true love, and it should last at least as long as your life does.”

• "Maybe that time is coming soon and maybe it is a million of years away, but even if we survuve the collapse of our sun, we will not survive forever."

• "I was thinking about the word handle, and all the unholdable things that get handled."

• “You realize that trying to keep your distance from me will not lessen my affection for you. All efforts to save me from you will fail.”

•  “Some people don’t understand the promises they’re making when they make them, I said. Right, of course. But you keep the promise anyway. That’s what love is. Love is keeping the promise anyway.”

• “You say you’re not special because the world doesn't know about you, but that’s an insult to me. I know about you.”

•  ”I will not tell you our love story, because—like all real love stories—it will die with us, as it should.”

•  “I’m in love with you, and I’m not in the business of denying myself the simple pleasure of saying true things. I’m in love with you, and I know that love is just a shout into the void, and that oblivion is inevitable, and that we’re all doomed and that there will come a day when all our labor has been returned to dust, and I know the sun will swallow the only earth we’ll ever have, and I am in love with you.” 

• “That’s why I like you. Do you realize how rare it is to come across a hot girl who creates a adjectival version of the word pedophile? You are so busy being you that you have no idea how utterly unprecedented you are.”

•  “You don’t get to choose if you get hurt in this world…but you do have some say in who hurts you. I like my choices.” 

•  “My thoughts are stars I cannot fathom into constellations.”

• “It seemed like forever ago, like we've had this brief but still infinite forever. Some infinities are bigger than other infinities.” 

• "There is no shortage of fault to be found amid our stars."

• "The physical evidence of disease separates you from other people."

• "The marks humans leave are too often scars."

• "Nostalgia is the side effect of dying."

• “Pain is like fabric: The stronger it is, the more it’s worth.” 

• "That's the thing about pain. it demands to be felt."

• "Forever is an incorrect concept."

• "Maybe 'okay' will be our 'always..” 

 “I cannot tell you how thankful I am for our little infinity. I wouldn't trade it for the world. You gave me a forever within the numbered days, and I’m eternally grateful.”

I dont wanna see the world without you. - Isaac

I want to be remembered. - Gus

Coz I love you.. and im gonna remember you. 
i just wish you'd be happy with that. - Hazel

____________________________________________________________

I didn't fall in love with you. I walked into love with you, with my eyes wide open, choosing to take every step along the way. I do believe in fate and destiny, but I also believe we are only fated to do the things that we'd choose anyway.  

And I'd choose you; in a hundred lifetimes, in a hundred worlds, in any version of reality, I'd find you and I'd choose YOU.

-thechaosofstars

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Ballet: Magical Moments of Cinderella

*late post

This highly celebrated retelling of the quintessential rags to riches fairy tale by Ballet Philippines’ Founder and Artistic Director Emeritus, Alice Reyes, brings laughter, merriment, and romance to the holiday season. -BalletPh

Cinderella's Story 

In a far away, long ago kingdom, Cinderella is living happily with her mother and father until her mother dies. Cinderella's father remarries a cold, cruel woman who has two daughters, Drizella and Anastasia. When the father dies, Cinderella's wicked stepmother turns her into a virtual servant in her own house. Meanwhile, across town in the castle, the King determines that his son the Prince should find a suitable bride and provide him with a required number of grandchildren. So the King invites every eligible maiden in the kingdom to a fancy dress ball, where his son will be able to choose his bride. Cinderella has no suitable party dress for a ball, but her friends the mice, led by Jaques and Gus, and the birds lend a hand in making her one, a dress the evil stepsisters immediately tear apart on the evening of the ball. At this point, enter the Fairy Godmother, the pumpkin carriage, the royal ball, the stroke of midnight, the glass slipper, and the rest, as they say, is fairy tale history. -IMDb

We all know the story right? There could be some other versions and addition to it but as always, it is patterned in the original plot.


Personal Thoughts
I often believe that my life is a fairy tale itself. Just that, there's no title yet. Haha! I just know I'm an ordinary city girl who dreams of being a real princess somewhere in England..someday. (Ohh i know that's too exaggerated! Haha!) Anyway, i live with that quote: "Just because i don't have a Prince, doesn't mean I can't be Princess.." That's right eh? So anyone can feel like princessy even without the majestic gowns, dazzling tiaras, a luxurious castle or even without a handsome prince. You just have to believe you are in some other way.

Somehow, some people could relate to some of those famous fairy tales too - just like Cinderella's story, just maybe in a modern way. Yet unlike these so-called-Fairy-Tales, we don't always get to have our happy ending in the real world. The rest of the scripts of our life is unwritten and is yet to be discovered so we can't really be sure that we can be that one lucky person to find the true love's kiss and a happily ever after ending.

Fairy tales make us hope that there could be that someone, the rightest one meant only for us. That person who will love and accept us beyond physical appearance and hideous flaws. A prince for a princess and a princess for a prince. Isn't that so lovely? We all get that feeling of longing for our fairy tale dream to come true. But sometimes, there's always a hindrance like maybe the wicked stepmom/stepsisters, a deceiving encounter or rather life's unpredictable complications back in reality.

Thus, I see the glass slippers like an expectation of every person to be rightful for the other person. I mean, the invisible glass slippers will fit only to the one destined for us. And it may sometimes fit with the other wrong ones but sooner or later we will always end up having an aching and sooo tired feet (heart) because it isn't the perfect right size for us. Or maybe because we forced to fit in that glass slipper we weren't supposed to have in the first place. Sometimes we want someone because we think we should have them. We were blinded with that fantasy that it is our true love and to have him/her would just be so perfect. Think again. True love is a feeling that doesn't just pop out in the middle of nowhere just because the glass slippers fitted, that is only the beginning. In order to make it last, you still have to work for it. Know that word - hardwork and bravery? That's what true love can be.


My Review for Alice Reyes' Cinderella
How i love fairy tales! So i didn't miss this moment to finally watch Cinderella (If i'm not mistaken BalletPH had it last or last last year but i wasn't able to watch it that time) So this time was that perfect time to catch the show on stage. So what can i say about it?

The ballet show was impressively beautiful and full of glamour. From the creative stage set and costume designs to the gracefulness of every ballet dancers, it is indeed an exquisite performance. I'm so fascinated how ballet portrays a story without the use of words and that the audience understands so well. It's truly entertaining and i had lots of that magical fun all throughout the day.

And since taking photos during the play isn't allowed (Im sooo obedient mehehe) So this two pictures are borrowed only. They're all so very graceful! And i so love the part of the stepmon and stepsisters. There's a very loud applause when they bow down in the front stage, i guess everyone loves their amusing acts. I love the carriage pumpkin as well but i hope they did a bit longer exposure like flaunting it again before the magical play ends.

Photo Credits: Mom's the Word

 ALICE REYES’ CINDERELLA was performed at the Tanghalang Nicanor Abelardo (CCP Main Theater) on the following past dates and times: 

November 28 (3 pm & 8 pm), November 29 (2 pm & 6 pm), November 30 (2 pm & 6 pm), December 5 (3 pm & 8 pm), December 6 (10 am & 6 pm), and December 7 (2 pm & 6 pm). 

The artistic and creative teams of CINDERELLA are led by Alice Reyes (Choreographer and Librettist), Salvador Bernal(+) (Set & Costume Designer), Monino Duque (Lighting Designer), Barbara Tan-Tiongco (Technical Director), and Victor Ursabia and Ramon Victoria (Restagers). -BalletPh

A bit of the crowd when the Ballet Stars went down for a moment of flashing smiles and lots of groufies!

Photo Credits: WazzupPilipinas

"It's been a long time since Her Majesty lost her glass slippers 

yet dear Prince Charming haven't found HER yet.."

KINDLY HURRY! *wink

Just so Recently...I

Hello everyone! Christmas is fast approaching and i haven't got my wishlist ready yet.
What a rush! Well, im not really into it this year (But i guess making one is mandatory) and im still thinking what i really want. I mean something that i want and need at the same time and most probably it would be something so priceless. Like time. Like love and like true happiness. That's more realistic..isn't?  Anyway, before i endlessly lust with those precious wishes, here's something to share of my recent doings for the last week. I have seen this around lately in other blogs so i was just as inspired to make my own..yay!

Reading

Listening

Watching

Cooking

Traveling

Random places around

Doing

Aside from work and reading books during free times, I've been hanging out in my extension blog, EN.  My poet-in-the-making soul wanders in there..haha! Those literary compositions which i freely write whenever i just feel like it.  Nothing really personal.  Mostly honest insights in general scope or whoever could relate to it. 

I'm also taking Piano lessons at home but i'm not really that serious with it. It's quite more of just to experience it and as well as to play one good piece.. hopefully. (I'm learning All of Me and Frozen's Let it Go) It was the same like the time when i tried to learn playing the guitar. Well, the fact of owning a pink guitar is an achievement itself for me..muhaha! (After a while it's for display purposes only) Anyway, there's really a lot more things i like to do and i could just feel that a wanderful journey is about to begin this coming 2015. *crossfingers 

Insight

When God closes the door, He opens the windows and might even raise the roof. 

Believe everything will fall into place all in God's perfect time. Sometimes He may not give exactly what we prayed for, but it can be more than what we expected. From there we'll realize that if only we let Him guide us, we can never be lost in ourselves. For He alone knows the deepest wishes and anguish we keep in our hearts. He alone knows what we need, who we need and when we need it. Just learn to wait. Hold on.

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Keep Calm and Stop Assuming

In this life, it is easy to judge a person just by the appearance, behavior, some known details and the most common thing, the way everyone talks about him/her, whether true or not.  At times, we take our chance to grasp for definitions that will help distinguish a person, but most of the times we don't really mind at all. So what? When it's "what you see, what you get." Nothing more.  Just to fulfill the need to know and replace the need to communicate so it happened, we instantly believe. It is merely the idea of thinking based on what is only visible and noticeable.

How appallingly unfair could that possibly be? How about the silent cry of truth behind everything?

Eyes and Ears
Not everything we see is what it seems to be happening, it could be the other way around or none at all. Just because you've been looking at it for so long doesn't mean you can see right through it every time you do look at it. It's possibly more of your own version of thinking and seeing things. Thus, anyone can stare blindly at anything, but it takes deep concentration and fair understanding to actually see what is underneath.

Not everything we hear, even how detailed it could be means it is real enough to believe in.  Just like they say, there's a difference between knowing somebody and hearing about somebody. Just because you heard doesn't mean you know.  Especially if it's just a piece of abstract thoughts to begin with. Without even any basis to prove it's factuality. Well, sneaky assumptions can be tempting sometimes right? Just that it can be cruelly offensive especially if it went overboard.

Moreover, there are these situations that we tend to assume every thing seen or heard because we become blinded by our sudden gash of emotions and often clouded by personal reasons (might be anger, envy, jealousy and the like) we hide to ourselves. Maybe, we're too afraid to ask or just too busy to care. True, it is easier to believe anything that one has heard a thousand times than to believe a fact that no one has seen or even heard before. But if you really cared about the person, no single thing can change your perception about them.  Though, it's a common thing that some people are being complacent with what they only want to know. It turns out to be an instant judgement rather than intelligent reasoning of what it's supposed to be.

Yet sometimes, even someone make assumptions or judge us, we don't really need to explain anything to them because there isn't a better explanation for someone who judged you already even before asking. And explanations are not necessary for those who know the real you and not because Google or any other source tells it so.


Pain alters Personality
Everyone has a story, there's a reason why they're the way they are. So we really aren't suppose to judge people coz we never know what kind of battle they are fighting or what they have gone through the times of their existence. People has their own reasons why they act the way they do, that sudden changes and/or the way they deal with life and their surroundings. And those reasons which sometimes, they just want to keep to themselves.

Oftentimes, we don't really need to know every truth in the world. What we don't know won't hurt us and what we ought to know sometimes will just hurt us too much. In the end, it's all about giving every person the benefit of the doubt and fair respect as well.

"While you judge me by my outward appearance, I am silently doing the same to you, even though there's a ninety-nine percent chance that in both cases our assumptions are wrong. " 

Before you assume, learn the facts.

Before you judge, understand why.

Novembering

This month is jam-packed with random surprises, the good and the not-so-good things. It keeps on coming i guess, just that the good and the bad always come after one another, like a sandwich and berry jam that seemed to belong together.. how sweet isn't it?  Sometimes i do ask God why and why and even more whys..but most of the times I've been learning to appreciate even the not-so-good thingys..i guess. It's all part of life. A few months ago, and still counting I had been so insistent to Him for all the things i want (and need badly), that i seem to overlook the things more like blessings in disguise He may have provided, possibly not exactly what i asked for but surely is what i need to make it through. (Though i'm still working on that, a lil bit patiently waiting for the outcome) Yet there are these few times i still get blinded with the blessings that's right under my nose. It happens maybe because i'm still looking at a certain direction i shouldn't be but i just couldn't help not to. But after all, i should still feel thankful for whatever has happened coz even though it may not be good for me but at least it become better for the other. Right?

Anyway, i had been into a lot of e-book reading indulgence which definitely keeps me extra busy everyday. It has been part of my workload that i simply wished i could have more time to read them all this coming month or maybe next year. Need more time..literally. Most especially when there's a set of new collection added to my e-library yet the fact that i already have hundreds of 'em, i still can't stop myself downloading for some more. Yay! I'm thinking of writing a review for some of the books i had finished reading, most probably when there's an extra hour to do so.

Recently, had been into random places which happen to be the highlight of this month. Going back to same old places gives me that melancholic feeling thus visiting new places puts me on the ecstatic mood. Fair enough. Traveling around everywhere is something i really love to do. To meet nice strangers, to see the wonders of life, to simply be lost and be able to have that little chance of finding myself back again.

Hey somehow I still wanted a happy ending..

"Yet now I've learned, the hard way, that some poems don't rhyme, and some stories don't have a clear beginning, middle, and end. Life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it, without knowing what's going to happen next."

So dear December, obviously i have no other choice but to trust you. again..

101 Randomness You Might Never Want to Answer P2

1: Is there a boy/girl in your life? None.
2: Think of the last person who hurt you; do you forgive them? Life is too short to waste time hating anyone. Haha i did answered the question right?
3: What do you think of when you hear the word “meow?” CATS!
4: What’s something you really want right now? Cottoncandy and YOU.
5: Are you afraid of falling in love? Falling out of it is more scarier.
6: Do you like the beach? Love it.
7. If you would stay with someone at the beach, who would it be? YOU.
8: What’s the background on your cell? Selfie.
9.  What's your favorite breakfast? Pancake and strawberries.
10: Do you like your phone? I guess.
11: Honestly, are things going the way you planned? Not quite.
12: Who was the last person whose phone number you added to your contacts? a client.
13: Would you rather have a cat or a dog? cat.
14: Which hurts the most, physical or emotional pain? Emotional.
15: Would you rather visit a zoo or an art museum? Art museum.
16: Are you tired? Dead tired.
17: How long have you known your 1st phone contact? Forever i guess?
18: Are they a relative? very much related.
19: Would you ever consider getting back together with any of your exes? What's it again?
20: When did you last talk to a stranger? A while ago.
21: If you knew you had the right person, would you marry them today? Yes, I do!
22: Would you date the last person you saw? We didn't even know each other.
23: How many bracelets do you have on your wrists right now? 7
24: Is there a certain quote you live by? "Life is not a competition. Find the stuff that makes your soul sing and be your own uniquely beautiful self."
25: What’s on your mind? seriously..YOU?
26: Do you have any tattoos? None..but i guess you're tattooed in my mind..sweet eh?
27: What is your favorite color? Gray.
28: Next time you will hug someone in public? Awkwardly sweet.
29: Who are you with a while ago? Me, myself and I
30: Think to the last person you argue with, was it bad? Worse.
31: Have you ever had the feeling something bad was going to happen and you were right? Yeah.
32: Do you have a friend of the opposite sex you can talk to? Yeah.
33: Do you think anyone has feelings for you? I dont know. hey someone has?
34: Has anyone ever told you you have pretty eyes? Yeah.
35: Say the last person you kissed was kissing someone right in front of you? Well..enjoy!
36: Will you be single on Valentines Day? Please don't remind me that.
37: Are you friends with the last person you talked? Almost friends.
38: What do your friends call you? Secret!
39: Has anyone upset you in the last week? I guess.
40: Have you ever cried over a text? A long long time.
41: Where’s your last bruise located? Right arm.
42: What is it from? Got hit at the door.
43: Last time you wanted to be away from somewhere really bad? Liar's den.
44: Who was the last person you were on the phone with? Wait..still thinking when was the last time i used my phone..haha!
45: Do you have a favourite pair of shoes? Lots.
46: Do you wear hats if your having a bad hair day? Sometimes.
47: Would you ever go bald if it was the style? No.
48: Do you make supper for your family? Of course.
49: Does your bedroom have a door? I guess. 
50: Top 3 books? Unfortunate Fairytale Series | Fairhope Collection | Unremembered
51: Do you know anyone who hates shopping? Nah.
52: Does anything on your body hurt? It hearts.
53: Are goodbyes hard for you? Super.
54: What was the last beverage you spilled on yourself? Coffee.
55: How is your hair? Brown and getting longer.
56: What do you usually do first in the morning? Turn off my disturbing alarm.
57: Do you think two people can last forever? If its true love.
58: Think back to January 2007, were you single? I guess.
59: Green or purple grapes? Purple.
60: When’s the next time you will give someone a BIG hug? when i see you.
61: Do you wish you were somewhere else right now? kinda.
62: When will be the next time you text someone? when someone does.
63: Where will you be 5 hours from now? Hue knows where.
64: What were you doing at 8 this morning? Coffeeing.
65: This time last year, can you remember who you liked? YOU.
66: Is there one person in your life that can always make you smile? Of course.
67: Did you kiss or hug anyone today? Bebe Tangy, my kittycat.
68: What was your last thought before you went to bed last night? YOU..i guess.
69: Have you ever tried your hardest and then gotten disappointed in the end? YES.
70: How many windows are open on your computer? 11.
71: How many pillows do you have? 7.
72: What is your ringtone? Love you like a Love Song.
73: Where will you be in 5 months? With you. I hope.
74: Where is your pet right now? sleeping at my bed.
75: Why aren’t you with the person you were first in love with or almost in love? Fate's design?
76: Have you held hands with somebody in the past three days? Hmm. With a not so stranger who helped me get off the boat. Does that count? Haha.
77: Are you friends with the people you were friends with two years ago? Probably yes.
78: Do you remember who you had a crush on in year 7? Nah.
79: Is there anyone you know with the name Mike? No one.
80: Have you ever fallen asleep in someone's arms? Yeah.
81: How many people have you liked in the past three months? Hey I've liked one person for three years.. 
82: Has anyone seen you get really mad? A lot of times before.
83: Will you talk to the person you like tonight? Doesn't even text.
84: You’re drunk and yelling at hot guys/girls out of your car window, you’re with? I wont be anywhere else like that.
85: If your BF/GF was into drugs would you care? Of course.
86: What was the most eventful thing that happened last time you went to see a movie? I fell asleep and woke up right after the movie ends. Haha!
87: Who was your last received call from? vm's
88: Are you a morning or night person? In between.
89: What is something you wish you had more of? TIME.
90: Have you ever trusted someone too much? A lot of times.
91: Do you sleep with your window open? No.
92: Do you get along with people? Yeah i guess so.
93: Are you keeping a secret from someone who needs to know the truth? Not really.
94: Does lust mean love? That's just temporary.
95: You’re locked in a room with the last person you argued with, is that a problem? BIG one.
96: Have you ever danced in the rain? Probably yes.
97: Did you sleep alone this week? I always do.
98: Everybody has somebody that makes them happy, do you? I do..especially if i have YOU.
99: Do you believe in love at first sight? Can you pass in front me again..? haha!
100: Who was the last person who made a promise to you? I forgot to remember who.
101: Will you take risk of loving again? I never stopped loving, i just stopped showing it.

101 Randomness You Might Never Want to Answer P1

A Part of Every Hue

"The best color in the whole world is the one that looks good on you."

Everything we see in this world, from the darkest ground unto the perfect clear sky above is an array of colors that makes life appear to be in vivid, wonderful hues. The surrounding points conjures a bright meaning in every splash of such an astounding reality.

Hue Knows
Life as it seems, a blank canvas waiting to be painted upon with both vibrant and gloomy colors. Sparkling brightness create a tremendous view of tranquility and contentment. The deep saturation of every picture shows an immense need of belonging and comfort. Different shapes and forms, fine points and sharp lines are yet to be understood and discovered upon each gentle strokes. Each picture created shows absolute happiness, sorrow and extraordinary features all at the same time. The completion of each detail unveils the invisible beauty of the past, the truthfulness in the present and the hidden mystery of the coming future.


The Color Within
Everyone is uniquely special. Every heart paints their own piece using its deep emotion of hope, joy, anger, love, hate and fear as it's guiding light. A picturesque of one's own story, contemplation and sensibleness. A part of it where one try to blend in the crowd, looking for the same shade or simply attracted in the exact opposite. Thus, we take each of other's hue and soon we become like the people we associate with. A bit of their own character and typical ways which turns to render own blindness in colors that somehow leads to acquiescence. The changing of colors can be good and favorable to our own being but in some way, may affect us distressingly at the end. The moments of realization like a crimson glow tell us to be watchful and to always take the good out of every bad.

A Touch of Glum
As the quote says, "You see a person's true colors when you are no longer beneficial to their life" which is quite believable. In some cases, it happens when the significance of the other loses it's worthiness. Their truest colors of pretense feeling cause fathomless gashes of pain and blackness. The dark shades of gray convey hatred and dejection. The sullen mask slowly fall off the rough black ground allowing frustration to take over. Indeed, awful but each picture may never be complete without the jagged outlines and dimness in it.  Life certainly happens to be surprisingly wonderful and invidious all at the same time.


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Every color adds definite meaning to our daily lives. These colors continuously flow, get blended in time and soon will vanish. Slowly, it will turn back to a sparkling white canvas, an assurance of a second chance to repaint dreams that already faded and rebuild our broken selves once again. In the end of it all, there's a new set of colorful paints and fine brushes purposely waiting for the sweet promise of a new beginning.

“Mere color, unspoiled by meaning, and unallied with definite form, can speak to the soul in a thousand different ways. ” ― Oscar Wilde

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Carry your Cross

Truly inspirational

We complain about the cross we bear, but we don't realize it is preparing for us for whatever is up ahead that God can see and we can't.

"Whatever your cross, whatever your pain, there will always be sunshine after the rain. Perhaps you may stumble, perhaps even fall; God's always ready to answer your call... He knows every heartache, He sees every tear, a word from His lips, can calm every fear...Your sorrows may linger, throughout the night. But suddenly vanish, come dawn's early light. The Savior is waiting somewhere above, to give you His grace and send you His Love."

  - source

Sweet November

Flower, gleam and glow

Let your power shine

Make the clock reverse

Bring back what 

once was mine

Heal what has been hurt

Change the Fates' design

Save what has been lost

Bring back what 

once was mine

What's once was mine...


"Sweet November, please make all my heart's wishes come true."

Hopeful October

The past months wasn't all that good but this month, i guess, might be good in some way.  It did. I just know it. Maybe because i tend to focus looking at the good things in anything bad that has happened or just about to happen..  Not really that happy, hopefully one step closer to that.


Awful Awesomeness
Lately, gained weight which is not so good and also, some emotional issues came along the way (that made me want to eat too much *ulk) It's really hard to believe i'm okay a bit dying inside but i guess it does made me even more stronger than i thought i will be. I learned a lot from everything. I learned that there are those things that go wrong and can't always be fixed. Some broken things stay broken. Some that are lost, remain lost or maybe some of those lost things have a way of coming back to us in the end, if it's meant to be. I'm madly hoping that i could still erase the unwanted happenings in my life but i do know that isn't possible.  So instead of trying to get rid of it, i just let it be there to remind me of the things i should and shouldn't do. I could regret everything if i wanted to, but that isn't really necessary. Everything do happen for reasons, we will soon find out why it ever happened to us. Life becomes a bit easier when you know what really matters and that's what i realized the most. Sometimes we really don't need to insist ourselves to others. Or even try harder to reach their expectations, It's more about who doesn't make you feel like you're a lesser person and in spite of all the flaws they've seen in you, they still chose to stay.

Well, now just patiently waiting for whatever life has stored in for me. And im kinda bit excited with that. Yay!
Life goes on. Remember that.

TOP 11: Quotes to Live By

Lately, collecting inspirational quotes had been my favorite pastime. 

Mostly, when boredom was about to strike, this saves me from it. 

These are my top 11 favorites.  Hope you all will like it too!

#NoteToSelf

I love this :)

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Regina Rica Rosarii

Late post: When my cousins had their vacation here in the Philippines, this is one of the places we visited. I've been in this place several times ago but it still feels like the first time..as always.

  Regina Rica has a 71-foot tall statue of the Blessed Virgin Mary 

which is said to have miraculous powers.

As explained by the nun, the place was built three years ago and is now run by the Dominican Sisters of Regina Rica who are mostly Ilonggas. This explains why most of the names of the different areas in Regina Rica are in Ilongga. Also, the S-shaped trail going up the hill was 308 steps She further explained that S stands for “sacred”. Then, she explained the cross that was inside the adoration chapel. It has the idea of the “Absence Presence”. 

 Since the place is a sacred place and just like other sacred places, they have rules on clothing. Sleeveless, shorts and spaghetti straps are not allowed. However, for visitors who came to visit wearing the prohibited clothing, they provide some cloth as a cover up. -source

On our way to Regina Rica

 A view of statue of the Blessed Virgin Mary before we went up.

High on top

Almost there.

 High above the clouds with Mama Mary

Hello ducks!

Their chapel and me

How to get there: 

 Regina Rica Official Website

"The Holy Rosary is a powerful weapon. 

Use it with confidence and you'll be amazed at the results." 

-St. Josemaria Escriva